I spent part of this week at Disneyland! It was great. I love that place. 🙂
The trip was very special to me for a couple of reasons. One, it was great to spend time with a friend I don’t get to spend time with much because we live on opposite coasts. The second is a bit more personal.
The last time I was at Disneyland, in Feb of 2013, I was still presenting male, and hadn’t started toying with the idea that, to be happy, I needed to transition fully. At this point I had already come out as trans to my friends, and they were all very respectful and were doing their best to make me “just one of the girls,” but I hadn’t decided to transition all the way yet.
As most people know, I’m a kidfur. My character is a seven year old bunny rabbit. (I’m not a babyfur. I can use the potty all by myself, thanks!) Part of this is having a family that I’m connected to, including a Mom. I was out in LA to visit with them, but especially my furry Mom. While I was out in LA, they did their very best to let me be one of the girls, even if at that point I didn’t really look the part, and I love them for that. ❤
My furry Mom and I went to Disney together. We spent time in both parks over the course of two days, and I remember it very fondly.
It was my first time in LA, and I didn’t know that once the sun goes down, it gets cold. It gets cold fast. Because of this I wasn’t prepared for sundown at all… once the sun went down I started shivering because I was cold. (It’s Southern California, for sure, but it was also February!)
Well, my furry Mom did her best to be all Mom-like and tried to give me her coat. I wouldn’t take it at first (chivalry is a hard thing to unlearn!), but eventually she got all Mom-like and was like “Bunny, take my coat. Now,” and then more-or-less made me take it. I begrudgingly took it.
Here’s the thing… it was a lady’s coat. I didn’t think much of it, other than it was a purple hoodie and it was warm and I was cold.
Not long afterwards, we stopped at the restrooms inside the Enchanted Tiki Room area. (Right by the entrance door. Most people don’t know they’re there, so they’re very private.) When I was in the bathroom, I caught a glimpse of myself in the mirror.
I was kinda shocked at what I saw. I looked… female! The coat did a good job of making me look kinda curvy. I was also holding a white light-up rose, too, so that helped as well. It was just sorta magical to me because I’d never really seen myself that way. I was all like “Wow, I don’t look all that bad!!”
That moment in the Men’s room there at Disneyland was the first time I’d ever even _thought_ “wow, I look okay!” in my life. It was… amazing. I felt so awesome that night. It was the first time I’d ever “cross dressed” in public, and I was doing just fine. 🙂 (I’m careful to use the term “cross dresser,” because I’m not one. I’m a lady and I dress correctly as one.)
This trip, I presented female. I had zero issues passing. I used the lady’s restrooms without so much anyone even looking up, I got gendered correctly the whole time, etc. Kinda awesome to me.
But… I made my friend that I was at Disney with go use those hidden bathrooms at the Enchanted Tiki Room. Not because I had to go, really, but I just wanted to go back to the place that really “started it all” for me.
I got all teary-eyed as I walked up the steps towards the bathroom, only this time, instead of going into the Men’s room, I went into the Women’s room. (And yes, I was wearing that same purple hoodie as before!)
I’m all teary-eyed as I write this. I cried a bit leaving the restrooms that night. It was just so emotional… I… don’t really know what else to say.
The magic that happens in the Enchanted Tiki room is amazing, but the real magic that happened that night in the restroom next to it… that will live with me for forever. ❤